Today is Day ONE.

10 WEEKS and ONE day from now, I will be stepping on stage again for a bikini fitness competition.

And it took some soul searching to make the decision to do it again.

PROS:

1) My body is pretty happy, but I want to see just how far I can stretch my mind.

It's a pretty amazing feeling when you realize there is no ceiling to better.

2) In the pursuit of helping everyone else, I've lost myself in the past 2 months.

You can't continually GIVE all of your heart, body, soul, and mind.

You have to earn some respect for yourself.

3) It's redemption.

I'd be lying if I said it didn't sting a little that I came in last place in my category, being the competitive person that I am.

But I was out of my element. 

I lost 40lbs, but I didn't understand how they wanted me to pose, how they wanted my body to look, and what mould they were looking for.

But that's the best part when you decide to commit to something bigger than you.

You aren't committing to building their mould.

You're building your own.

You're asking, how can I elevate just one step higher?

So I'm going to become a student again.

And study, and learn, and master.

CONS

1) I'm putting myself out there in a sea of criticism, insecurity, and women who will do the UN-natural to fit a mould.

2) I'm taking a chance and shaking up my lifestyle in terms of my eating, my training routines, my time management.

But if you never take a chance, you'll never make a change.

I will be working on sculpting the BEST BODY that I can have,

BUT  2017 is all about building the most confident,

MOST OK WITH MYSELF MINDSET,

That I could ever have.

So look out April 22nd, Niagara Falls,

Look out OLD SELF.

It's redemption time.

I'm coming for ya!

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